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Mon, 20 May 2013 10:36:23 -0400

this day i like the heat. the simmer and hurt.an ache, one reminder of a pleasure,...

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:30:00 -0400

this day
i like
the heat.

the simmer and hurt.
an ache,

one reminder of
a pleasure,
fleeting.

destined to chase, and
always
out of breath.

"We have to consciously study how to be tender with each other until it becomes a habit."

Sat, 18 May 2013 11:49:27 -0400

“We have to consciously study how to be tender with each other until it becomes a habit.”

- Audre Lorde (via ryanbhilliard)

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Fri, 17 May 2013 16:59:03 -0400

"Right away there’s thinking. Right away. No matter how much I want my face to moon with no..."

Fri, 17 May 2013 07:30:10 -0400

“Right away there’s thinking. Right away.
No matter how much I want my face to moon
with no contortion, leave all talk to voiceovers.
Hands take after purrs. Nicknames remind us
mostly of the fun inventing them. Every beach
fire is a kind of desperate flag. Cops pull over a
riding lawnmower, and the man won’t turn it off.
We walk the dike that crosses I-91. Headlights
pan like reasons. We’re keeping warm. Cars aren’t
fireflies, which is not even how I feel. “Funny isn’t
the same as being happy,” I tell you. Duh. Neither is
that. A family of tiny arsonists live in burned out
delivery trucks behind your neck. They are your
bad pillow. Hands wobble. It’s never been infinity
with me. Infinity is something I can fist bump.
It’s more like when I chew the top off a lightbulb,
and there’s no blob of light to hold. Carry. Get
close. Let me eat your eyelash like a mission.
If we plant it in a divot on my cheek, maybe I’ll
grow your love of coats. The lay of your wrist
when you’re tired. What plays in your head after
you gnaw my finger, look at me, teething the skin like
wrapping paper you want to save for next Christmas.
Sometimes I know that I don’t know what’s going to happen
next, but I know exactly who I’m going to be with when it
does. This feeling is called kiss me. This feeling is called hi.
But maybe you’re not thinking of anything. I’ve thought
about that. We’re on a hillside. Night grass. Grass face.
And the sky is clear enough to see exactly how you feel.”

- “You Can Know That Wait Means Stay,” Mike Young (via grammatolatry)

rosalarian: Periods, you no longer impress me. I am bleeding...

Tue, 14 May 2013 18:19:52 -0400

rosalarian:

Periods, you no longer impress me. I am bleeding from my nethers, WHATEVER. Try something new, uterus. You make chocolate pudding instead of blood, then we’ll talk.

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Mon, 13 May 2013 18:48:59 -0400

Was pickin’ flowers in the night and feelin’ on edge...

Sun, 12 May 2013 00:16:39 -0400

Was pickin’ flowers in the night and feelin’ on edge due to a creepy dude trying to get my attention. This seems completely apt right now.

"I no longer need you to fuck me as hard as I hate myself. Make love to me like you know I am better..."

Sun, 12 May 2013 00:08:46 -0400

“I no longer need you to fuck me as hard
as I hate myself.

Make love to me
like you know I am better than the worst thing I ever did.
Go slow.
I’m new to this
but I have seen nearly every city from a rooftop without jumping.
I have realized

that the moon did not have to be full for us to love it.
We are not tragedies
stranded here beneath it.”

- Buddy Wakefield, We Were Emergencies (via it-factor)

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Fri, 10 May 2013 21:02:43 -0400

Alright I know there’s nothing interesting or cutting-edge about liking Radiohead because...

Tue, 07 May 2013 20:09:03 -0400

Alright

I know there’s nothing interesting or cutting-edge about liking Radiohead because everyone ever does, but

They’re just SO GREAT

and I will never get over it

"To be ill adjusted to a deranged world is not a breakdown."

Tue, 07 May 2013 19:19:03 -0400

“To be ill adjusted to a deranged world is not a breakdown.”

- Jeanette Winterson (via thehumanseason)

sunrec: Karezoid Michal Karcz

Fri, 03 May 2013 18:32:02 -0400

sunrec:

Karezoid Michal Karcz

Back from a trip to JP and Cambridge. Spent time with and met so many amazing folks. Riding this...

Fri, 03 May 2013 15:38:11 -0400

Back from a trip to JP and Cambridge. Spent time with and met so many amazing folks. Riding this feeling of accomplishment as far as it will go - this was really big in terms of challenging intense social anxiety as of late. I had a fucking great time. Everyone rules and I feel soso inspired. I’m going to listen to records and get so much shit done.

right

NOW

rudimentarylabia: Hungry Ghosts in Buddhist mythology are...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 21:12:48 -0400

rudimentarylabia:

Hungry Ghosts in Buddhist mythology are beings that are not fully alive. They have bellies too huge to satisfy with their slender necks and food becomes ash in their mouths. Being born into the world of the hungry ghosts is one level away from Hell.

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Wed, 24 Apr 2013 21:10:08 -0400

One of my favourite feel-good tunes

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 20:54:35 -0400

One of my favourite feel-good tunes

Today I went to my first therapy session in a long time. Put some things together already and am...

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 20:57:33 -0400

Today I went to my first therapy session in a long time. Put some things together already and am looking forward to attending sessions regularly - however, not sure if I can at this point because it interferes with my work hours.

Also treated myself to some fancy kombucha afterwards, accidentally smashed it at my feet, and walked home smelling like I was fermenting. This is the second time I have walked home covered in kombucha - maybe not the best smelling thing to drink in public. Thinkin’ that this anxiety/feeling of being overwhelmed is definitely contributing to my especially accident-prone ways. Feeling very ready to start connecting dots though. Tonight will be very full of writing in bed.

i am so into this

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 19:37:10 -0400

i am so into this

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Fri, 19 Apr 2013 17:25:25 -0400